I woke up early this morning,
automatically walking quietly down the hall
in case I wake him.
Then I remembered.
He's not there.
It's a strange feeling,
sort of like ghosts,
but at the same time
not.
He is not gone,
just in a different place.
And I am happy for him.
We had always wondered,
He and I,
if independence was even conceivable,
and now he is transitioning,
learning to be that person--
independent, self-resourceful, and free--
that he's always wanted to be.
That leaves me with an empty house.
I had been warned:
You'll be lonely,
You'll hate it.
You'll have to get used to it.
None of this is true,
at least not yet.
I enjoy solitude,
and I think that boredom,
for me,
is simply not an option.
There are so many things to do--
Art, violin, guitar, voice
Writing
How could I be bored?
Lonely?
Maybe,
but that's why there is Skype
and Facebook
and the phone.
So I accept this empty house,
and I even accept that the phrase is not true.
This house is not empty.
It is full.
Of me.
As we walk down our road, from time to time we notice pebbles along our way. Sometimes they're nothing more than pretty little stones, but other times they are there to remind us of battles we have fought, demons we have conquered, or even times that we've lost and learned valuable lessons in the losing. We can choose to leave the pebbles where they are and forget, or we can pick up the pebbles and turn them into markers--reminders of our journey and the lessons learned.
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Wednesday, July 24, 2013
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